As most of you know (and by most, I mean the 2 people who read my blog), I'm a manager at Bath and Body Works. While I enjoy my job (for the most part) and love the people I get to work with, I can say with certainty that retail is not my calling for life. I started working at BBW nearly four years ago because I desperately needed a change from my previous job. I stepped into a completely foreign field to me and discovered that I enjoyed it and that I was good at it. For once I began to think that I may have found a career path. I could grow with the company. I could transfer to another region if I found a spot calling my name. I got days off within the week while the rest of the world was stuck at work. Every day was different, leaving me excited to see what the day would hold.
After four years, each day is still different. However, the excitement is harder to come by. I get frustrated that my schedule varies so differently from my friends. I feel like I'm missing out on so much of life cause of the ever-changing schedule. The days off in the middle of the week have lost their appeal. I must say, I would probably be able to do retail for life if it were Monday through Friday from 9 to 5. Some would say I have a problem with contentment. Perhaps I am looking for the perfect job that just does not exist. Or maybe my creative personality does not lend itself to a job that I will enjoy for the rest of my life. I have not yet decided.
What I currently know is that my God-given dream is worth fighting for. I may not know how the story unfolds, but I serve a God who will guide my every step. I used to think that I needed a word of knowledge or prophecy from someone "qualified" to truly confirm what I sense in my heart. Truth is, I'm a child of God and am just as qualified as the "prophet" on TV to speak positive and powerful things over my own life.
1) My temporary circumstances (uncertainty about the future, desire for something new, ministry, etc.) are not my forever.
2) My God may not give me all the answers when I think I need them, but His delay is not a denial. He will come through.
3) And the false evidence Satan continues to fling my way is not God's reality. There will always be people who want to kill the dreamer...the one who dares to believe Jesus meant it when He said He came to bring us life and more abundantly.
"There will come a day when the haters will have to bow to the dream." - Jentezen Franklin
